When lows get real LOW
It's been a moment since my last post. Since I am doing better, I figured I better post an update. A lot has happened since the last post. My therapist dropped me after an episode. This wasn't a normal episode. I was cold, rude and very sure of myself. She suggested I spoke with my Psych at my appointment later that day at my appointment. She said I needed a new plan to continue treatment. I went to my psych app, reluctantly. Long story short, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder co morbid Antisocial Personality Disorder. I have two full blown personality disorders that should not co-exist, but very rarely, do. How it was explained to me was that during my abusive childhood, my personality split into two. One has BPD and the other has ASPD. It is not considered Dissociative Identity Disorder because both personalities are me, just different versions of me. When I was younger, the ASPD side of me ran uncontrolled. She destroyed everything in her path, an...